Have you ever,

Feel like you'd never be happy again

All of a sudden.

Before October ends,

It's definitely the busiest month ever, time flies in a blink of eye and yea, i'm starting to feel like November gonna be a good month :)

The incomplete group picture ><

Joining this Perhentian Island Challenge (PIC) as a volunteer is really an unforgettable experience, I sure have some complaints about the disagreements with some stupid/unknown arrangements and due to the never ending works that placed a bigger burden on me and Yvo which made us didn't enjoy much like the other volunteers do but in the end, what's really important is what i've learnt and the amazing people i'm meeting. They are really cuteeeeeee and funny people ;}

It's been awhile that i could really hang out/catch up with my friends, i miss meeting all of them. 

 Brunch time with Yvo, Jing and Jiwawah @ En Ginza Cafe, Pavilion

Noted there're Halloween and Ultramen buns, cutee. And my lovely giant Macaroon with berries, me love. My personal fav is the Ocha bun and they do serve proper meals like spaghetti and pizza besides breads and pastries, a recommended cafe for tea <3 

 Sis said i look good in this little red dress, teehee.

Awwww, i miss shopping btw.

And i've went to sing k and movie, finally, just once for this month. Felt so left out with the movies updates, even my busy-working bro managed to watch a few of them and earlier than me, sobs.

7.5/10, not a bad movie, but kinda overrated by all the fb friends.

Hugh Jackman no longer that eye catching in the movie, i prefer Atom the robot, so cute, and the handsome little kid, Dakota (i thought it's a girl's name, hehe.) 

Not to forget, it's my angel Yen's birthday at the end of October. The angel gang decide to celebrate for her later (as we always do) when we are back from the HK trip but i managed to brought her this little cake in the middle of the night in front of her house.

I want all your wishes come true :)

We somehow think alike in some ways and we both think it's because we share the same horoscope, the sensitive scorpio. Can't believe i've known her for 11 years, after all we have been through, the sweet secondary school life and some little argument (only once ><), the friendship just grows stronger as years go by. Looking at her surprise plus happy face, i'm actually feeling happier than her. Little did i know, happy is an infection, and making people around you happy would duplicate the happiness.

And anddd, i've received my first not-so-surprise birthday celebration last night, sorry guys i was just woke from nap still very tired and blur at that moment. Now i just realize i didn't take any photo with my phone, how coulddd it be :( Shall blog about this laterr.

p/s: i can't believe i'm taking 2 days to actually sort everything out to write this post. Arrrgh, running out of time and lacking of rest are causing my brain not functioning well recently :/

Playing the chasing game with time,

Tell me, i'm not alone.

Just hug me and speak no words,

next time.

It's better late than never,

Happy Diwali :) thou it's two days late, hehe

Top: love the peacock design on the 'blue pao' (i suppose), Bottom: the yummy Indian dishes (tosai, curry chicken, mutton, and white mihun-liked which i forgot it's name). Both provided by my Indian neighbour who never fails to invite us to his Deepavali open house every year.

...and it's been awhile since i last dolled up,

i *hearts* bows

no heavy makeup or hairdo plus the forever-lacking-of-sleep eyes, but i do love how my hair waved naturally (ignore the little messy part cause it's taken after party) and the dress on the day *wink* ;)


p/s: whaaat, it's breaking dawn, again. Nitezzz

Last year, today

we were flying to Greece, my dream country ever since the day i knew about this beautiful name of Aegean sea and there marked the beginning of our Europe trip that last for a month. The blonde hair hazel eyes, the historical/unique architecture/buildings/sites, the taste of shish kebab and roma pizza, catching the cold breeze at the starts of winter, the holding hands in the pocket... Everything was tangible within the touchable distance, a dream that couldn't be this real.

I'm missing the blue and white of Santorini, but google map says it's 13,556km away :(

Chocolate says Good Morning!

Me sayz Goodz Nitez :p

p/s: yesterday's KL weather was only 23 celsius at the evening, after the rain, perfect weather for hugsie =)

zzz

Little Joy of the day: A cute guy says i'm prettiee, weeee *blushed*

Have a break,

With mommy-made orange juice ♥, take a peep at my newly made study table ;)

and Chocolate says hi ;)
dontchamisshim!

Baby I still believe,

when it's true.

It's really hard to hold back the tears,

i have to sneak into the toilet right before it falls, your fault :{ You're always the one who knows my tears the best.

if it wasn't the snow at that winter.

but, 

thanks for making me the happiest girl at that moment.

谢谢你， 让我曾经很幸福/甜蜜

xxx

I wish ♥

If only London and Paris could be 19/21 stations and away from me :3

Big project ongoing.

I've spent the weekend to pack all my things into boxes, except the furnitures and some clothes still hanging on in the wardrobe, basically i have 30++ boxes of stuff, oh ya, the shoes boxes are excluded. My room has never been this empty before, and tomorrow will be the making of new wardrobe, it's like a total makeover of my room sweet room, can't wait :}

clockwise: ignore the puffy eyes, never get enough rest ever since i discharged from the hospital, which is like, a month ago? :/ > small part of the packing boxes > my still newly-looked wardrobe, which will be abandoned simply because it's not big enough for a clothes-keeper-owner like mieee ><

Nonetheless, which means, there's gonna be lotsa unpacking/arranging/tidying work to be done.

Life is busy, as i told you.

p/s: i'm gonna miss my old wardrobe though it's only few steps distance away from my room :p

One day,

You will choose not to share any worries or unhappiness with anyone, cause no one could really understand how exactly you feel, not even close.

Unless you have found the someone,

But isn't anyone could be that lucky.

The tacit understanding between us :)

*wink*

the story of TRUE LOVE :p

p/s: yea i have nothing better to do to keep myself awake for accompanying the lil bro burning midnight oil for exam, *eyes rolling*

Essential of life.

iyou

xx

Somehow i love keeping secret,

when it's promise and secret between you and me.

xxx

p/s: thanks for everything last night.

it's so comfy to hear your heartbeat again.

Allow me to be negative for at least today,

This year has never been easy for me, from love, study, to health, they just slipping through my fingers one by one when i tried to catch them. Losing the love one, failure in study, admitted to hospital and met an accident, how many of you could be much bad luck than me in just a 10-months-time, and yes nothing really good happening. I never intend to complain how miserable my life could be, but please stop telling me to think positive or optimistic cause i ady am and stop asking me to stay strong cause i've been strong all these while. You will never understand how does it feel like crying but you just no longer have tears / the feeling of staying strong alone after losing the shoulder you could lean on / afraid of you could stop breathing anytime or not waking up from sleep anymore / keep smiling everyday and hold the fear of needles and the unwillingness to have medicines in the hospital simply because you don't wanna worry the parents / stay calm and making the judgement to minimize the damage to the car at a very brief moment before the accident.. The feeling of you just been through one bad stuff/challenge in life and think that everything gonna be alright again buuut, another bad stuff happens.
I've been handling all these by myself and i'm absolutely tired now. Don't i just deserve a break from these? I'm sick of staying strong/positive.

Told you i do be optimistic. Yet sometimes i just prefer to be realistic, instead of hoping for miracles.
So, damn it for staying positive!
去你的明天会更好！

and i hate myself for not hating you any longer, grrr.

it's supposed to be a day to be celebrated,

and i hate you for this, for the very first time.

I lay my love on them ♥

I'm definitely over the age of being crazy for any idol, but they have been my all-time-favourite, ever since secondary school and till today, my heart still pounds whenever i heard any of their songs. I can't even decide which is my fav song of them because there are just way tooooooo many. ♪♫♥♫ Cause it's us against the world, you and me against them all, if you're listening to these words know that we are standing tall.. Can't believe that I'm the fool again, I thought this love would never end, how was i to know, you never told me.. I'm already there, take a look around, i'm the sunshine in your head, i'm the shadow on the ground, i'm the whisper in the wind, i'm your imaginary friend, and i know i'm in your prayers, i'm already there.. Tell me what makes a man, wanna give you all his heart, smile when you're around and cry when you're apart.. ♪♫♥♫  I bet you could just sing with me all night cause we are too familiar with them :)

This song was once dedicated to you.

If you've lost your way. I will keep you safe

This is a concert without any special effect, no much decoration on stage (or i should say no decoration at all), no dancer, no DJ. Just Mark, Kian, Nicky, Shane and all of us. They sang, they talked, and they danced a little bit (in a cute way). Every song tells a different story, you can either singalong with them or just quietly listen and indulge yourself in their voices or the story. Oh ya, someone proposed on the stage, me envy, on the part that the lady got to hug Westlife, awww :/
(p/s: and i needa special thanks to someone paid for me, teehee)

At last i chose this, cause i'm so in love with this song, at the very first time i heard it at their previous mini-concert.

Tonight, you're gonna know how much I miss you and I miss you so

They're simply amazing :)

And if you wanna know, why Michelle, because Nicky sings so ♥

Maybe tomorrow you'll say that you're mine.

If you ever text me this,

It gonna be a sweet escape <3

Goodbye Steve.

It's really not my intention to be like i'm so care about the death of him, but everyone who has a fb account would know about this news, as the first thing i checked when wakey from the not-well-sleep this morning. Honestly i'm a total noob for all technology products, or maybe i should say i'm absolutely lazy to figure out how the machines work thus owning a Mac or Iphone didn't bring much enhancement to me, I just bought it for the sake of having it. To me Steve J. is nothing but just the inventor (okie, an outstanding/famous one), not until i spent 15mins to watch his commencement speech at Stanford University, 2005, the one he shared 3 of his true life stories which genuinely touched me and changed my point of view towards him.

(or if you prefer to read and i've got you the text of the speech.)

My super-favourite part,

Isn't it somehow similar with anything happens for a reason? *wink*

So i'm here, showing my respect to this brilliant man of the century.
To the impacts and changes, he brought to us.

The absence of September

Some says you will tend to be more appreciated for what you've lost, yes it applies to me, i've learnt that nothing could be more important than being healthy, nothing much i can do without a healthy body. There are so many more tasks/plans out there to be done, how could i ever been deprived from all these fun stuff in life again, right? Can't believe i didn't do any(much) shopping/hangouts/movies for such a loooong period, ohnooooop :/

Been sleeping for too long, it's like my september never existed. *taking a deep breath* Can't wait to shop/play/hangout/work/study/sing again, hellooo October!

Continue breathing, one of the best thing in life.

I couldn't be anymore grateful to You, my Lord.

Little Joy of the Day: A call from the farfaraway friend, cheer me up, abit, heh :)

As expected.

It's good to see you guys again, for staying with me as of the exact sufficient supports i just need. Though myself have no good news to be shared, but am really proud of you, Jing and Yvo girl :)

Time for this pair of  >35Hours-not-closing-exhausted eyes have a little rest.

Cause life's gonna be busy/different again, soon.

*kiss on the cheek, aye?*

xxx

Can't sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

:(

Twists and turns in the stomach.

Not sure because of the intensity or the medications.

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

I can't really describe how does it feel after swallowing the medicine pills, kinda like gastric but not exactly that pain-killing, it's a very uncomfortable feeling in the stomach, plus the bitter taste that seems to stay forever on the tongue, which kill all my appetite. Though the doctor has ady prescribed the medicine to ease the side effect of antibiotics yet the nausea feeling still there. I'm trying hard to eat cause i know i still gonna take the medicine. I have to hypnotize the brain to expel the feeling of vomiting which might cause any possibility of throwing up the medicine. I can't bear the consequence of not-recovering anymore.

There's nothing much suffering than doing thing you do not want to.
But i need to be healthy again, as soon as possible.

So stay strong, i will.

-

Isn't it funny that i can still sleep soundly beside you with your snoring, yet couldn't do it when it comes to my poor-caring mom :3