#23

perhaps I'm not the only one, there's always someone new, someone later on, someone.

Uncertainty is what you always give,

(you just seem to forget).

Someday,

:))

24/09

Now I'm officially nervous.

Imy,

tell me you miss me too. would you?

#22

I thought the heart was numb to anything, m surprise it's aching tonight.
I guess it's either functioning again, or it has never recovered.

Or maybe it's all just the (P)MS symptoms.
I'd sleep it over.

Goodnite, and mornin.

#21

Feels like a week to me, when we did not text for actually, a day.
Seems like I'm gettin used to you again.
Pi, Imyvm. :(

9/09/13

I just realized about the date after checking out my fb, nowadays there's lotsa 'meaningful' dates to spend with you love one, just like the V-day. I don't really bind the idea but spending time with the special one on a special date coincidentally do make me smile :)

The warmth of your palm and the feeling of your fingers intertwining with mine still linger.

I always miss you when you're not by my side.
(I'm telling you now.)

Let it flow, let it flow,

Perhaps I'm the one driving myself insane.

Seems weaker, when I'm stressed.

One down, four to go.

Seeing you sending me home despite the tiredness from the long day of work, makes me just wanna hug you tight and lull you to sleep. Ily, a lil more today :)

Fighting tomorrow again. xx

#16

At a moment, I think I'm losing you.

I know, you're not even mine.

The feelings are all coming back to me again.


Gonna hug myself extra tight to sleep tonight. Oh i mean, this morning.

Wanna hug you to sleep,

no I can't,

gotta get back to study, sobs.

#imy

Wish to stay a lil longer,

'cause it's exactly where i want to be. x

Disappointment kills the appetite.

can't help it.

No, it's no one's fault.

Kill me,

Apparently I'm not good at handling stress, especially exam stress. I can face my fears or pressure from work, I could overcome all of these but not this stress. I always tend to give up before exam, broke down few times previously. I remember how awfully I cried in the phone with Dad when I was at UK before the finals, mom told me that there's tears in dad's eyes during that call, what a bad daughter I am. 

No, I can't continue like this.

and why do I start crying again.

#15

It's so annoyed that you forever see things in blurred vision.

#fml

Hey,

I have a habit of reading back my blog posts of the month, the memories are flashing back, and I even refer to Dear's post on what she wrote about me that time. I did not read/watch any sad stories lately so yea it's been awhile since I cried like this (maybe thats's why I've got dry eyes :p), I have no idea where's the tears come from. Used to write really long-winded posts that time, guess that I must be really free, opps. I guess I've closed my heart ever since then, no one could come it, and the people inside could not go out. I do not like to talk about myself, thou people try to dig it out, but really, my mouth is sealed, all I can do is write, the only way to express my complicated feelings, and to clear the mind. Looking back the past, have I burdened you with too much of tears? I'm sorry, perhaps that's the reason why you're so afraid of hurting me again. No worries okie, I'm a tougher mushroom now, and I do like how happy and relax we currently are, the moments we have, now. The past has no longer haunting me anymore, I hope you do feel the same too :)

Oh I have clearer vision now. x

You still left,

what i'm good at doesn't really matter, anymore.

Tired,

travelled too much.

You'll miss home.

Still the familiar warmth of your palm,

You ll be fine, I ll still hold yours.